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It's just another one of those days where I've just had the day to think about all that is going on right now and well, there's some good things and some bad things.  The good side of it is that I only have a few more days of school left in the semester and that I will be going on vacation in Washington state soon after.  I'll be leaving June 8th and returning June 14th, which, I'm hoping will help take my mind off of a lot of things.  Sooo...now for the bad things...Well first off I went to Huntingtown's prom this past weekend with the Sam's, Jubs, Corey, and Jenny.  And I kinda feel like i let both myself and my date down by not doing much in the way of dancing at the prom.  The second part of the bad is that I think I know why I wasn't as involved as I really should've or wanted to be was just having look at all that I'm missing out on basically.  And well I'm just hoping that maybe this summer will prove to be rewarding and that the vacation that I have planned will really help to relieve me of everything that has been going on lately and to give me at least a week without having to worry about what I would really like to have and have been without for a long ass time.

Has anyone ever gotten a strange chill when they've listened to a certain song?  Well I have; I was listening to a song by Thousand Foot Krutch.  The song was called "This is a Call," and as some of you may know this is a somewhat of a Christian rock band just like the band Seether is.  Well anyways, the song is about how both a guy and a girl are reaching out to God.  But in the part of the song about what they young man is doing with his life it says:

 "He tells everyone a story, because he feels his life is boring, and he fights so you won't
ignore him, because that's his biggest fear, and he cries, but you'll rarely see him do it. He
loves, but he's scared to use it. So he hides behind the music, cause he likes it that way. He
knows, He's so much more than worthless, he needs to find the surface, because he's starting to
get nervous.

He's calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out, ' Cause everytime I fall down, I
reach out to you, and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out, I'm asking
you, to show me what this life is all about...."

Anyways what I'm getting at is that after I got that little chill it made me think of how I could kind of relate to that song.  The first way is through when the song talks about hiding behind the music.  That is pretty much true because yes, I end up using the words used in songs to express how I feel at some times.  And secondly, the part about being shown what life is all about is also true.  I'm usually asking myself whether or not the decisions I make are really ones that are worth going through with.  Along with that I also end up wondering where God is really taking me with this life of mine.  And yes, I'm still waiting on the answers to where I'm going in life as well as answers to many other puzzling questions of my own.  When I had gotten this little chill I was just driving home from a usual night of school, the only thing that was different was I was on a nice back road in Charles County and the sky was clear with a full moon which just made everything come together in my mind. Basically it just made me think a WHOLE lot about where I'm heading.

I'm still just wondering what type of change is in store for me.  I just hope it's the one I've been counting on for over a year and a half.